I’ve decided that I am definitely going to get the SmartLipo procedure done on my inner thighs. I am so unhappy with them and nothing I’ve done for the past 4 years has made any significant impact. I’ve been running, cycling, stair machine, strict diets and even had a personal trainer for an hour three times a week for three months – I’ve still got seriously fatty inner thighs. I’ve reached the point that I just don’t know what else to do but elect for plastic surgery.
When I think about how big my thighs were when I was heavy, I really shouldn’t complain about how tone 75% of my legs are. I tried to find a picture that would show you just how bad it was .. I found this one from when I was in the Dominican Republic in 2004. I seriously just started crying.
How do you let yourself get that big? How do you not see what is happening to your body? It seriously disgusts me that I ever let that happen to myself. I can blame being depressed from the death of my mom, but ultimately, I choose to eat the way I did. My mom was constantly on me about eating well. Clearly, it didn’t register very well.
Moving on to the topic at hand, I decided I’ll go ahead and post my “before” pictures even though I haven’t decided when I am going to get the procedure done. All I know is, with clothes on, this is serious false advertising
When you creep the shorts up, it’s a very different story.
I can’t believe I’m posting this. Putting your biggest insecurity out there for the world to see is a little overwhelming. At least when I posted my “before” picture of my stomach, I had a nice “after” picture with a flat tummy. For now, this is how the thighs are and will remain until I decide when to take the time off work and when I want to drop the $1800 on the procedure.
You can see the left thigh (when looking at the picture) has a very distinct bulge of fat. It’s not as obvious on the right but it is still there. I probably should have taken one from the side to show how much it sticks out. I think having my stomach done made my thighs seem that much more prominent. I can’t even wear size 12 shorts because the thighs don’t fit. I wear size 12 jeans because the 10′s don’t fit around my thighs. It’s extremely depressing.
I have some fat on the outer thighs, but not enough that the doctor is willing to touch it. I think that once I get rid of the inner thigh, I’ll be more motivated to hit the weights. Since I’ve had my stomach done, I’ve been doing ab exercises every day because I know that it’s only going to help with the skin issues.
I really wish that shows like “The Biggest Loser” were more honest about the impact losing 100+ pounds has on your skin. For some people, who have been heavy for years, they’ve lost a lot of elasticity. Why do people talk around the issue? Why do they not want to share their stories? This is life – it’s real – it happens.
I’m not proud of who I used to be, but I am proud of the person I have become. I have worked very hard to lose this weight and I have earned the right to fine tune it through plastic surgery or whatever means I choose. There are still only a handful of people who know that I’ve had my stomach done. I don’t think it’s anyone’s business what I choose to do, how I choose to live my life, the decisions that I make for myself. Everyone is entitled to their opinions, but I choose not to open the door to hear them. This is about me – no one else.